the research chemical hit
the group and left us doing
lines of moth wing dust
off the rim of the clawfoot tub
left us holding eye contact
dangerously long spans of time
left us on thin black-and-white tile
to fail at teasing out intentions
from our four little retinae
that twitched and jerked neon
tracers across the evening air
and when our bodies and brains
decided the other posed a threat
we smiled our apologies and
curled in like anemones
frightened of touch
Author Archives: J⊙seph Amm⊙ns
moonset
midnights
spent committing
moon shapes to memory,
rehearsing the nicknames of lovers,
losing
the feel,
and imagining a laying
on of hands. midnights gone
the way of all
language
3 goddesses
your hooped
genius gyrates
(an orbiting raven)
the fall is promised, but not the
harvest
your math
keeps me alive
inside my skin – can it
keep me alive outside of it?
how long?
your thought’s
of a quantum
computer, the shape of
a universe, an emergent
structure
I have 100 followers now, yay
scissors
a death
god looks me up
using the internet,
but divine distraction attracts
its gaze
toward
more grisly matters in the east.
encoded in the web,
my fate between
scissors
i lack
nomenclature,
my stomach: an empty
well, and the holy spirit (♀)
guides me
Q and not Q
so close
to your gravity
i both am
and am not
a strobelight yang-yin,
a polarized
whirligig,
an infinitely-sided
coin flip:
so fatally close
to quarking up
into pieces of
raw nonsense
from the intensity
of your gravity
my mind un-monads
into zeroes
but no ones
sober
as an oiled knife
my consciousness cuts through
itself-itself ad absurdum:
no blood
Afterlife
In this afterlife
Where you buried me
The sun never quite
Rises over the trees
The birdsong’s all backwards
And animals are not shy
This oblivion is yours
So it has your style
(Mostly bare, that is,
Due to your atheism)
Through an interdimensional
Limn I can observe you
Laughing. Can you see my
Ghostly face across your
Mind’s eye where I lie
In this forgetful place?
Under the soft
Unfurling ferns
Where fireflies float by
And stars drift slowly
From the weeping sky
I wait like a violin
Here, I can still die
In this afterlife
You have fashioned for me
So I haunt up the memory
Of me by placing stones
In circles
kid at church
hungry
in communion
for the whole loaf of Christ +
i want to drink all of His blood
thirsty
